Daddy...

Within 3 days I dreamt of daddy twice. First dream was messy but the best part was I managed to remember that I asked him if he is happy now... His answer is 'Yes'... I am so happy and relieved... It is ok not to know the content of the dream at all... So long he is happy now.

Last night he came into my dream again... this time I couldn't remember a single bit of the dream, just knew that he was there. In the morning there was this fat bird (hokkein the breed is called 'ka leng') stood right on my kitchen's window. It was calling loudly... I was bz cleaning up the house but as I went near to the window it flew away. I continued with my work and I was in my room that I heard the loud calling from a bird like the previous one at the kitchen again... I just wonder... Daddy, is that you?

Daddy...

Last year this time, daddy was still around... I still can remember the long corridor walk of the hospital to his ward. We were able to talk to each other and see each other at his ward but a year after I can only see daddy in my memory... I can't even reach his hands... My heartaches... A friend told me to concentrate on the living now, my mummy and my family... I try... but I can't help missing daddy...

Last afternoon, YS and I walked past the Soup Resturant and YS said 'Mummy we came to this place with Ah Gong and Ah Ma before.' I nodded my head and the next question my dear little girl popped, 'Are you going to cry?' I shaked my head... 'Are you sure you are not going to cry?' It seems that my dear little girl is aware that whenever at the mentioned of Ah Gong, mummy heartaches...

Ah Lao aka My daddy

Ah Lao, I miss you very very very much... I always wonder if you are around me to see what is happening to your daughter whom you always say I'm the one you doted most. I wonder if you've been reborned? If yes, please please please let daddy has a better, happy and wonderful life ahead. 老爸我好想你哦。。。